Risk

The critical failure called evil; is determined by whether you are willing to “go down the road”, in search of what is horrifying/ just to prove you can, to someone else. Lots of people find this road, and lost people continue until they find the revenge they seek. The road back however, is far more difficult; because you threw away your life; to judge theirs.

The critical courage called love: is determined by whether you choose to participate, in the values of living/ as respect identifies in you the cost of love is a passion, that grants “I will share/ because I choose to care”. But there are limits and boundaries; foundations and realities of living; and the constant that is, a path we can walk together. While I have lived a life largely without love to aid; it is because I spent a lifetime refusing to be distracted; because life or death of a world is far more important “than me”/ to me. So while some appear to be “without love/ or lacking commitment”; it is not always true, that they choose to be so. Or don’t make commitments you don’t intend to keep/ don’t allow for children to love you, rather than a parent; unless it is absolutely necessary, and you are willing and able to commit to that amount of time. Because the difference in young or old is not simply a body, so much as it is an understanding of what life demands.

Love does not judge, but it does seek truth; and that truth then determines the level of love each one is willing to commit too. If your truth fails/ his or her commitment to you will fail as well. Because trust alone creates a bond/ and without a bond, you cannot move forward in respect. Therefore it dies, and lies come forth as manipulation takes control instead. We cannot seek truth without accepting the cost of being involved in someone else’ s life. Which means: when we give love/ then we gave that love to someone else, and it is now their love/ rather than mine. Which if it fails to return; becomes a heartbreak, “because your own love has been lost”. And that is filled by sorrow.

So then the elemental rise of love, is a relationship built upon respect; that grows in trust, because the truth is evident and no one needs to surrender to doubt. Because for each element of love that has been given, and equal amount returns; so that we do share the future of our lives as one. Commitment forms with value, and it is the value of working together as one, that finds our own search for happiness, “is you”. But make no mistake, as with me: if our paths cannot walk as one/ then truth will divide what we have made; and loneliness may step in. truth alone survives, it is not love/ but without love there is no happiness to be found; and that makes life worth living. So both are needed, but respect assigns the passion of how we can make this work. Even so: truth requires an equal commitment; or it is not yet time.

Loneliness shares the distance we will travel in time; because loneliness identifies the value of love to each one. Being truly lonely subjects each human being to the choices that will then be made. “to find love/ to accept hate/ or to give yourself to want, and remove the others for not caring enough”. Love is within the elemental rise of truth/ as miracles prove exist. Hate requires judgment, and that begins with wanting what someone else has. Love does not need to judge, letting laws decide what must be chosen/ or if forgiveness can be enough. Hate however lives only to judge, and it blends with the heart of those who want “what they want”/ as is give me what I want. Loneliness is an “empty space”, where nothing exists but you. Therefore it is a habitation, that requires your participation to exit the hole, created by what you want. Love can be a want, but it cannot be a hate or a judge. Therefore be aware of what reality will teach. Love cannot survive as a want, which means sex will never anchor a human to you/ even though it will buy you time, as addictions do. With the same results. To find love/ you must accept love! To accept love/ you must be open to receiving love, and not closed in behind the walls erected to keep other people out. Which always means: love requires a risk.

Hate at the opposite end of life, requires only a judge: “so they can play god”, with life or world.

Risk however comes in all elements of life and living; and it will never be free. Because risk means you are willing to spend your life, for the passion called for by your living. Some gamble with everything and lose/ some gamble with everything and win/ the vast majority gamble with very little, and gain very little. While hate gambles with everything you own, instead of theirs.

It can be honestly said: that I gambled with everything, and in the end “both won and lost”. Because what I valued most became real, as a fight for this world and its life can be. But I lost male, by entering into the female spiritual world; to encounter being lost and without a clue. So the end result of that is: be careful what you wish for/ reign in your heart to understand the cost before you accept its consequences. As for me, I do accept: the trade was well within the values of my heart; I did do, what I could do for this world, as is my duty, “as a recipient of life with miracles”. I do not regret it/ although it is a complete surprise. I never would have guessed!

Nonetheless, the consequence is unknown/ but the reality of “weeks past” a very harsh refusal of “life as it once was”. Has become male is gone now/ it seems dead, although his body remains in time; “with alterations”. Reality however proves; I have changed, or life has changed, or something has changed in me. And it is certain; “life is never going to be what it was”. I have no real clue; life is different, and I do not recognize it. So beware; of what you choose! A lesson from me: “before entering into the spiritual world, by opening the door (just to ask a question/ never intended to enter)”. I stood there for a significant amount of time, and finally accepted “its female/ how dangerous could it be”. I found out, as the end of male; after almost twenty years now proves: “it is better to be wise and cautious/ than foolish and blind”. Even so, after a ten year search; I had not found an answer that would keep this earth alive. So, apart from consequences: “it was both wise for life, and foolish for male”. Ending with, I will accept the consequences because I must/ but am not sorry, because there is one last chance for this whole world, to “grow up, and find life back”. Her life and balance provided that/ and I am grateful; it was my only true choice. Male did the best he could/ whatever is left, will be “something else”. I know not what/ I simply feel different/ completely disassembled, unprotected, and at the mercy of things I do not understand. Wreckage all around, that will not fit back together. But I remind the male world: apart from “real world business or platonic friendships”/ your own eternity is at risk of Hades, if you fail to respect “life or body”. Whatever this is, “it will be decided by female”; not you. Or more simply: male has had thousands of years and we stand at the edge of extinction. Women will decide the final choice: “life or death of our world”. Whatever: my existence in time, has to do with that is “completely unclear”.

And the world says: “he is delusional/ living in a fantasy world/ imaging he can be what he is not”.

My reply is: while you do not understand the spiritual world/ you do understand this earth in time. Which means you do understand: the delusions of those who believe they can play god with genetic nature, promising the world, but will deliver hell instead. Which means you do understand: the fantasies of believing you can control the same fire here as is on the sun (known to be “a million mile long flame”); ;because the universities say they can be god. Which means you image a world that can never die or be changed, because you want what you want/ reality be damned; as is the cost of what you do. So I ask: who is the truly, “Insane one”?

Because the end result of my life is “whatever truth will decide/ not me”. And of all the evidence on our earth, as is the miracles of life here: the one foundation truth we can all rely upon is: “humanity did not create this”/ nor did lower forms of life, by accident, chaos, or other find a way to exist on its own. The curse of religion, as is the cult of universities satan/ lead you to death with “believe/ fear/ obey only us”. While I only say: this is about me, not you; and a life you don’t understand, because you want/ rather than seek the journey called truth. As with miracles: we cannot fully know, how this came to be/ or what might come next. Therefore asking of truth to share that knowledge, becomes a life beyond self/ or even beyond time.

Before hell consumes you and all life on earth; you must learn “to think”. And that has nothing to do with your intellect; as is “the building of traps/ mazes/ and deceit”. the risk of falling into the catastrophe of “university knows”/ is clear and certain by the evidence. Yet you refuse to understand: they stole/ lied/ cheated/ failed/ betrayed/ terrorized/ crucified life with genetics/ assassinated your children/ led you to the cliff of extinction/ and want you to be their slaves. because media propagated “they are gods”/ and you believed; as medicine (and its extortion) now threatens all life on earth with overpopulation/ end of life for species beyond count/ poisons/ pollutions/ global warming/ and more.