Friendship

In the question of friendship, there is only trust or lies (you are not trusted). When you prove the lies, all friendship stops; because you chose something else before friendship itself. The consequence of that is almost entirely: ME, me, me, me, me, me,,,,,,,,, MINE, mine, mine/ its all about me; to hell with the world, because I won’t care; and refuse to share. Most screaming you are worth NOTHING, to me.

So the end result of it is: the treasury of trust and love and value and hope was not enough. When confronted with greed, selfishness, pride, power, or wants. Proving the identity of this one has decreed: nothing matters but the isolation as king/ queen, of “me”. Shouting I win/ I am the superior one/ you lose, the worthless one. Proving the purpose of feigned friendship is simply waiting: for the price of betrayal, to rise.

There are endless realities of life involved in that statement above; pride is a horrendous thing/ dissolving life and truth for possessions and superiority. But pride is literally one of the hardest things to eject from your life, that exists. You must surrender the claim of “being equal/ yes I can/ and more”; so that only truth decides what is or is not to be. That would mean unless it is truly necessary to confront the tragedy of what people do/ it will be let go. Following them into the sewer of all things less than true; has consequences.

It is unfortunate that people want, pride and power! My dad was an example of that: thought highly of me at first/ completed with me for a time/ ended that when he inherited money. Believed I was his “get out of jail card” in terms of eternity for awhile. Ended that when my 9 month old nephew died harshly. And then cast me aside as worthless; when tinnitus took over my life/ and a blood clot changed me physically. (now past, after almost killing me again; seem healthy again/ but no one knows). So life changes based upon want to be rich/ life changes based upon what you believe/ life changes based upon pride to win, and power to judge. And it occurs at any time with almost everyone throughout life. My mom although she had asked me directly “what does the bible say of her”/ and I told her, which she believed: pride however would not let her change; and she then intended to “bring me down”. Insisting I should tell dad how he fared: also brought pride to bear, and he refused to change as well. Which had nothing to do with me. Pride has caused many to die: without eternity/ vanishing from time and truth.

It is noted: that both did their best for most of my life, providing love and value/ even though they never understood me. And I did provide “less than perfect” realities of living for them to judge. I would not have asked for any other to be my parents. Nope, not perfect/ but neither am I.

Of friendship: we know two distinct things. That we shall and must allow for freedoms to exist/ and that we must not judge each other for the decisions or realities of life imposed upon us all. To create trust this must be true. If a reality exists that requires law/ then it is the law that judges rather than you. It is also necessary to understand: you cannot give what you is not yours to give honestly. You cannot intervene; when the safety of life itself is at stake/ when sanity is borderline, and the cost of helping could become a life lost; due to other realities of existence. You cannot intervene: when the cost to those who would be helped/ is potentially greater than what you seek to save. The cost of letting children depend upon you; might lessen their ability to choose a parent instead. Leaving has a cost; and it is unfair to romance someone, granting hope, and then leave. It can affect their future.

It is unfair to judge in nearly everything; I used, for a short time “enlarged script”; to search for people to help me (without judgment)/ but none were able to read; because the image was not common to their expectation. The world is unfair; as men did make it to be. Because pride wants power; simple as that. It is also true that nature is unfair: because some get more than others of valuable things. But for everyone to be “unique and individual”/ there literally does have to be “8 billion differences”.

I suppose, illuminating some degree of “spiritual truth”/ requires me to acknowledge; “it isn’t friendship/ so much as it is need”. I needed her presence to balance me/ she needed my presence in time to establish her own desires. IT IS COMPLICATED. And I am in the wrong place in terms of truth; mixing genders is not allowed. So, while it is true we worked together (I could feel her presence) for 10-12 years/ war first. We balanced each other, and created an opportunity others could not.

However for the last 7 years; I do feel a bit trodden upon/ as I am not allowed to make any decision for myself, other than little things. I suppose that is how many women feel/ and are subjected too; but it is unkind. No freedoms allowed/ ownership is lost.

The purpose is then to remove the illusion that: religion supports as is, “to the great reward/ in whatever form they demand”. It is not true. TRUTH ITSELF will decide what you can or cannot receive. I for my part truly desired to “fight for life and world, as my gift back to GOD”. And it is fair to say; entering into the spiritual world of women; created the foundation of balance which allowed me to do that. Providing for you law decides, not leaders/ limited capitalism decides, not money/ and truth decides, not want. Each of which humanity fails to want: because they want what they want/ rather than what is true.

Nonetheless, this earth is facing extinction; and you cannot go on as before. Which establishes: WE MUST HAVE DIFFERENT/ and that can only be done with women in charge of law. A ten year search within male produced that conclusion; because they have established throughout history, a constant reality of their decision will be war instead of law. So it is time to try something new.

As to other aspects of “life beyond time”; you do have to be invited to cross the abyss which separates us all from eternity. There is no bridge, only true faith will grant within respect; the possibility to try. Humanity wants GOD to make all things better/ but, other than a tiny few: refuses to change anything; as is the history of the Jews. Purity does not mix with “tainted lives”.

It seems true to me: without doubt, the struggles to survive for GOD were immense, at the beginning. It is only fair we experience some of those same types of problems/ to sort and divide who will survive in eternity from those who cannot. Because they refuse to surrender their want. Truth survives/ or life does not. Accept that as fact; with only time allotting for lies, as a method of your training/ and the decisions that will identify yourself.

I CANNOT say; why the spiritual woman of revelation would keep me within her world/ I do not know? We have finished our work/ or at least I have finished mine as male defined. It is wrong to guess/ but it remains absolutely clear “she is in charge”. Perhaps I am useful to women in their search for ways to keep this earth alive; but I have no clue. Got to be a woman to understand woman; she is changing my: “life (no, I can’t), brain (muddled and unclear/ female at times), and body (got tits; what a different reality they are)”/ but I still have no real certainty why? So as to those who say “I know”/ or believe they have an open door to “conversations with god”; or other. I say to you: beware of what you believe. Fear creates deception, and deception can destroy lives.

Eternity is not “a giant candy store filled with everything you could want/ and no restrictions or denial of a right”; as some religions claim. Want, pride and power; will not be permitted; because it leads to beliefs that are not true. Survival for an eternity REQUIRES PURITY, and it is only the purest which will survive beyond truth. Where GOD exists; and all forces begin.

I should mention as well: that respect requires an acceptance of your own truth; as is the decision to accept GOD IS REAL. Once you do that, it is required of you to accept that your life has now changed to reflect that truth in you. Or more simply: to participate in this work, literally requires you to “sign your name”/ and stand out from the crowd, who will refuse to believe or accept what the evidence can prove is real. It is a commitment, that extends beyond the choice: to provide in you: for sharing, caring, respect, value, love, dignity, truth, trust, heart, hope, and soul.

In reference to that: it is my choice at 71 years old to say, “I gave a lifetime; and all I would have chosen instead”/ and need not surrender more.

It occurs to me: NO, this is not like living in a harem, at all. And if it were, “I would be the girl”/ this is separate, “non-polluting”. It is the spiritual world of women, which I did search for; because women in time, had no use for helping me understand what they would do different for life and earth.

I guess, that would have meant male was making the decisions, and presenting the result; rather than female? She created the balance, which was absolutely necessary to our work. As predicted in Revelation 12 & 17 (bible). nope, not a clue?

I know it is the spiritual world of women; because when opening the door; “a naked female” came out and stayed long enough for me to be absolutely certain. I was then pushed in by surprise; and found it to be “a completely different world/ without any reference I understood”. Its complicated/ I have no rights or freedoms to choose. But the spiritual world does not care: I opened the door, and must accept what truth will decide. A lesson would be; after hesitating for a lengthy period of time: I finally opened the door with “its female, how dangerous could it be”? Answer; far more than you expect.

 

More simply: “I do” live spiritually, in the world of female, and cannot escape it/ but physically in this world as male. Whereas she sort of lives in this physical world through me; but remains spirit forever. We are so joined as to be inseparable; or so it seems. However I literally have no clue; how this will end as always “death comes for each one”. Eternity then begins. So WHAT am I? Other than caught between two distinct environments of both time and truth (spirit)/ and between male and female: I utterly don’t know. Maybe the worlds ugliest female sort of/ or some version of male, enslaved? No clue! Will this end soon, or much later, or not at all? No clue. Truth will decide, even though spiritually I should not be “where only female can go”. But a world soon to be extinct/ changes many things. Because you won’t care, and wait for HELL to arrive; as is the mirror of a cult worshiping its leader: whom they scream “can’t be wrong”. And yet is, as you continue to shout:  “we will wait and see”. Dead is dead/ mutilated or incinerated or other; makes no difference at all! You will not “stand back up”.